Words on the Wind

On a week away this summer a rotund man says

 It must be a real pain just sitting there taking in the sunshine, as he passes while waving his arms around to take in the sunny blue sky, sea beyond and screeching seagulls.

My stomach rumbles. 

I mull over how long I should leave it before I mention my hunger to Mr H, knowing he will offer to fetch me something as I laze in my deckchair, smelling of sun cream covered skin. Maybe an avocado bagel from the kiosk I think...

I wonder how much they cost a day? 

£11 I call out as the two ladies pass. They stop, turn their heads and smile a thank you.

Hello you are through to British Gas if you have a boiler breakdown press 1... fades with the phone owners footsteps crunching on the pebbled beach in front of us.

It was grey on Tuesday but we still went for a swim a mature lady giggles as she and her companion walk, engrossed in their friendly chitter chatter, oblivious to my pen scratching across the page of my notebook.

Almost everyone peers inside as they pass. Unembarrassed curiosity disappointed when all they see are two chairs occupied by Mr H and me, our rucksack, knitting, books and shoes abandoned on the floor. They are hoping to see a quintessential beach hut. Pastel blue and white interior with shells dangling from string, a kettle whistling on a camping stove, empty cups awaiting the hot water while pretty, tied back curtains flutter in the breeze.

Sand in my shoes a small child moans, nestled in his Dad's arms as they wander towards the bucket and spade shop...

Nosey dogs of all shapes, colours and sizes are eager to investigate the inside of our hut before being yanked away by their lead, held by an absent minded owner. 

A people conscious, bucket and spade laden grandma walks ahead of her dawdling grandson calling out we are holding everyone up here. And when they stand aside, like a queue at temporary traffic lights, the trailing hoards rapidly filter past. 

As the sea recedes it exposes a moss covered rocky prominence which I am itching to explore but when I mention it to Mr H he rolls his eyes saying it will be too slippy for you and I don't fancy fishing you out of the water with a broken ankle. I know he is right so I am content to watch as adults and children clamber all over it, standing and staring.  And instead I imagine they are looking into pools full of sea anemones, limpets stuck to the rock like glue and crawling, creeping crabs.

A young girl's words to her boyfriend are carried to us on the breeze, take a photo but wait until I get further away from you I will look slimmer then. I grin knowing that is something I am likely to say to Mr H. 

As the sun dips down towards the water and the air cools, dehydrated children trail behind their equipment laden parents, their eyes watering as they suck rapidly on straws sunken into cold cups of drink, looking anywhere but where they are heading.

Shall we have a walk into town Mr H suggests as he starts to gather our belongings at the end of this beautiful Mindful day...

The Last Load

I hear the rumble of lorry wheels. They are here I shout to Mr H.

We step outside into the cold darkness.

It’s Wednesday evening on the 10^th of November. We have waited all day. I have been like a jack in the box every time a vehicle drove up our road. I am shattered. I have done more sit to stand exercises in the last 11 hours than all week.

My physio will be pleased.

Outside the huge lorry slowly chugs towards us as I wave frantically hoping he can see me in my navy clothes as they merge with the dark damp air.

The lorry driver gets out. Walks around the back of his monster of a lorry and raises the hatch. He disappears into the dark echoing vault. He eventually emerges with a pallet wrapped in plastic and makes the slow mechanised descent to the ground.

He wheels the load over to us as we stand in the road saying thank you, thank you, thank you, with beaming smiles.

The driver meanwhile says absolutely nothing! He takes a photograph of us standing by the pallet and we say thank you again to his back as he walks towards the lorry, gets inside and drives off.

There is no fanfare. Just the two of us shivering.

Let’s get a knife Mr H says…

He tears the plastic off and carries box after box into the back room.

I rip one open and stand motionless. Staring down at the result of five years work.

I stroke a cover. Lift one free of the box. It is heavy, heavier than I had expected. And shiny. And big.

It is full of my words. Photographs I have collected and painstakingly chosen to include. Stories and memories of many ladies and gents who were once members of Adult School Classes within the Midlands.

My first book has been published.

Thirteen years to the week after my life changed because of a brain tumour, I have become a published author of a book on Social History and the History of Education within the Midland Adult School Union.

I am totally utterly silent. Overwhelmed as tingles run down my arms and spine. I would never have believed it was possible.

The Last Class. The Story of the Midland Adult School Union 1845-2020. Written by Dawn Hamill.

I have spent the last five years plodding through archives, reading old books and interviewing past and present members of this remarkable Movement. I have discovered that my own family history was woven into the world of The Adult School. I have shared some truths about my own journey through life up to and after the brain tumour. A tumour that changed my world. But gave me the time to change my path in life.

The Rich Tapestry of Life never ceases to amaze and thrill me.

The book is available from Brewin Books Ltd. Also Amazon. It can be ordered from WH Smiths. If you have a query, please feel free to email me differencedawns@gmail.com

 

Dimwits Don't Wear Masks

Yesterday over 49,000 people tested positive for Covid infection.

Within the last week an average of 124 people died as a result of Covid each day in the UK.

That’s two double decker buses full of seated people. Friends, wives, husbands, grandparents, mothers, fathers and the occasional child.

Every day.

If a double decker bus ran off the road and into a ditch killing all its occupants there would be outrage. An enquiry into what happened.

Two on the same day. Well, that’s hard to imagine. Almost as bad as everyone dying on a crashed airplane. Well four a week actually if the weekly figures are compared with a Boeing 747.

BUT

The UK Government website displays the numbers vaccinated first thereby placing emphasis on this rather than the many thousands actually affected by the virus on a daily basis. Yes, vaccination appears to be saving lives, reducing the severity of illness in most of those vaccinated but coronavirus is still there. Still killing people in airplane loads.

At the start of Lockdown 1 I was part of a group of friends who started zooming each Sunday, initially to support our dear friend John who was completely socially isolated as a result. As my Blog readers will know John sadly died but not of Covid. However, we have carried on zooming most weeks as we reach out to each other, voices of reason, debating the news headlines, deciding which masks are the best to wear on an airplane and in shops…

As a group – all retired - we fit into the brigade of vaccinated, eagerly awaiting boosters, mask compliant, sanitising, handwashing, still social distancing where we can and avoiding places/situations where we can’t.

Yet it feels as though there are not many of us left.

At the weekend Mr H and I stopped at a service station on the M5 to use the loo and it was buzzing with crowds of non-mask wearing people pushing past me as I headed, slowly, towards the sign for the Toilets. Mr H as usual was by my side to block those non mask wearing pushers who were in too much of a hurry to give a wobbly me the space I needed.

You wouldn’t think we were in the midst of a pandemic at all would you I said to Mr H as we walked. I was feeling so angry I checked the UK Gov Guidance which states: When You Should Wear a Face Covering: We expect and recommend that members of the public continue to wear face coverings in crowded and enclosed places (sounds like a service station to me…) where you come into contact with people you don’t meet. For example, on public transport…

This brings me to Dimwits and back to my zooming friends. In particular our zoom master, the organiser of our weekly chats Jeff Smith. He has kept us entertained with his lengthy emails, summarising and commenting on the day’s news headlines. He has just returned from a holiday in Mallorca and this was our zoom sponsors take on what he witnessed…

There are just so many cases nowadays in the UK, very nearly 45,000 yesterday… at an average rate of 387 per every 100,000 over the last seven days. 

According to Reuters this morning, in Spain over the last seven days, the average is currently at 4% of its peak… that is an average of 1,538 cases per day, just 22 cases per 100,000. A significant difference.

 Our country isn't using avoidance of infection as one of its tools to tackle it, it appears we are relying on the vaccine alone.

 Elsewhere in Europe, even though 'things' are increasingly allowed, going shopping, meeting up, dining out; mask wearing indoors remains mandatory. In smaller shops and cafes, the numbers allowed indoors are restricted, and some social distancing is still in place. All hospitality staff engaging with customers wear masks.

 In a hotel we stayed in for our last night, our temperatures were taken at check in. The breakfast was held on the covered (but open both ends) roof terrace (yes it's warmer on the med) and everyone still had to wear a mask. The tables were well spaced and you had to wear plastic gloves for collecting food from the buffet. 

 They haven't forgotten, they aren't ignoring it. Despite starting after the UK, they're as vaccinated now and often more vaccinated - in percentage of population - than we are. But they recognise that reducing infection is key to success.

 Double vaccines alone do not prevent infection from the delta variant, it reduces the severity, but unfortunately, it doesn't guarantee it won't kill you. Above the age of 65, maybe even 60, there are deaths amongst the double vaccinated and the ratios and numbers increase with age.

 We all have to be careful.

 In the airport at Mallorca, we saw signs (in multiple languages) instructing everyone to 'respect respiratory etiquette'.  

 An excellent message. Or as I might say 'wear your bloody mask. And wear it correctly, you dimwit'!

 Here it feels as though the government message is that we are reverting to 'herd immunity' through spreading of infection. It appears as though they're not interested with how many folk get ill or infect others (even deaths), just as long as the NHS doesn't get overrun. 

 I don't understand it, I don't agree with it, but most of the UK’s population (from the evidence I see) seem not to be bothered at all.

 

This is the personal view of an intelligent member of the public who has witnessed first-hand the different approaches in the UK and Europe. It is clear that a large percentage of the UK population don’t want to protect their fellow man.

 I feel that reintroducing mandatory face coverings and social distancing in England (if only to give a visible sense to all that we are still in the middle of a Pandemic) as in other parts of Europe could have a significant impact on the numbers of airplanes, we are filling with deaths from Covid infection in the UK.

 And as the dark nights draw in and winter takes hold, the population of people who have not been exposed to the usual colds, flus and respiratory infections because of lockdowns are now moving around as though these infections also don’t exist.

 As someone with underlying health conditions and a trashed immune system I am worried. I am vaccinated, wear a mask, maintain social distancing but despite this am fearful that tomorrow or the next day I could start coughing and end up as another statistic on one of those buses or airplanes…

 

Farewell John

During the last three years I’ve said too many tearful goodbyes to people who I have loved and who have stamped their special characters into my soul.

This week I will be saying a final farewell to John, a friend for forty years.

We spent ten years of our lives together and since then our strong friendship has moulded into an exchange of support and sharing a love of music, film and books.

In the 1980s we traveled around his much loved Spain, proudly thinking we had learned to speak Spanish at night school until challenged with trying to understand Spanish people talking!

I have stood ‘patiently’ tapping my feet while John lay on the pavement in the middle of Madrid trying to get THE photograph, and again in the Alhambra Palace in Granada and again in Andalusia and the mountains of Austria…

I sat through a horrific bull fight in Rhonda because John wanted the experience, oh yes, and the photos…

Those who knew John will know that getting up and down from the floor was no mean feat with his disabilities caused by polio when he was 4 years old.

He taught me so much about dealing with disability. As ironically I followed in his footsteps - or not so many steps as it turned out…

He showed me that grit determination mixed in with a bit of a temper, helps in rising above health challenge after health challenge which were thrown at him and subsequently me…

He rarely complained about his fate but when he did it was usually to my ears as a nurse. I understood his pain and frustration and even more so as my own health declined.

Despite his own problems he was ready with advice, compiling a cd on music we had spoken about or researching whichever electronic device I was thinking about buying…

When I decided to learn to play the ukulele during lockdown it was John I turned to for guidance... We had always been happy to entertain as a guitar playing duet - John a skilful master of the guitar, while I strummed along or sung out of tune! 

John had a strong family of friends but it is only now as we plan his funeral that I begin to understand how, like a bird collecting grass and straw, it was John who gathered people into his nest of friendship.

It is only through loss that I begin to realise how much of my friends' soul has seeped into mine…

So once again, as I sit in the garden listening to the breeze rustling through the trees and to the joyful bird song as they settle on branches, I am reminded that precious moments like this can so easily end…

Rest in Peace John xxx

And the winner is...

Love is in the air and when I wonder into the kitchen two red envelopes await. The one with my name on has a bag of heart shaped chocolates behind it!

I don’t open it as I am up early and Mr H sleeps on.

I look up from my computer screen when he wonders down the stairs and immediately asks

Do you want another coffee?

Ooh yes please I reply without a glance in his direction.

Oh, and will you read this letter for me to check that I have included everything…

The last few months I have been working harder than I ever have. My days at the computer are long, my eyes are sore but I now have a deadline to meet.

The book I have been undertaking research for and then writing over the last five years is almost ready to go to my publisher.

Yes, MY PUBLISHER… every time I say those words, I grin

I have signed a publishing contract – grin

I have been talking to my publisher – blush with pride

My book - The Last Class – The Story of the Midland Adult School Union 1845-2010, is about the history of the astonishing Adult School Movement in the Midlands. Once a flourishing organisation, it is now about to close is doors and only the last class will meet. The Rubery Class. The Class which my Mom has attended for almost sixty years. The history and memories of the last living members of some of the Birmingham Classes are woven into this book along with my own recently discovered family history. Snippets of my own life peek out from some of the pages.

I am beginning to get excited, I am however, keeping it in check with a heavy book as I try to unravel the world of copyright law for the many images to be included.

After an hour and another cup of coffee I remember it's Valentine’s Day so drag myself out of my computer chair to give Mr H a hug and his card…

This year I am convinced that my card will be the winner, appropriate for the moment depicting what has occupied almost all of my time since the start of Coronavirus…

 

 Mr H agrees… and I make my way back to the computer…